I am excited to be back typing away or hoping to type away with another Five Minute Friday post. Five Minute Friday is all about writing from the heart, from the sticky places, and in five minutes. No worries. No edits. Just flow and go. You can learn all about it and our awesome host Kate Motaung by following this link. This week’s word prompt is: LACK
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There is nothing like having to sit down and type for five minutes to make you immediately think about lack. I’ll be honest, I believe I could fill pages on my own lack. But I could also fill pages on how God shows up even in our lack.
For many years I searched out my place. I looked for how to fill a hole in my life left by a mixed up relationship with a father who checked out of my life. That lack caused me to fill in the blanks with boyfriends who were less than stellar. I searched for validation in a variety of relationships and careers. I searched but found nothing that fit or satisfies like our Heavenly Father.
He knew my lack. He knew my need. But God like the gentleman He is, never pushed himself on me. It was me who had to take a moment to stop looking about for the things to fill my void and simply look up to the one who put His mark on my heart before I took in my first breath of air. He whispered my purpose into my ears. He sang over me as I stretched and cried out as that small writhing baby, who still had a grasp of Heaven and was now experiencing a burst of an unfriendly earth. A small body in a big world reaching out for something bigger, reaching out for just a little more time, reaching out for the one. THE ONE.
Thank God for our lack. Without it, we wouldn’t recognize our need for Him to fill.
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Going beyond. It is really funny but while I wrote that last little bit, I could so vividly see that little me in the hospital. Squalling and unhappy because I knew this world was not my home. I felt that absolute need to stretch out for our God.
Thanks for stopping by! Have a beautiful week!
I love this, Kelly. What a great visual of our infant beginnings! Thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much Paula. It is funny how you never know where you are gong as you write an FMF post. 🙂
It was heartbreaking to read about your relationship with your father. Having an absent father, whether leaving home or working too much, causes angst for the child as they grow up. I get that! We are the fortunate few that have realised our Heavenly Father can fill this lack in our lives. I pray your story can reach others in similar situations and hope they too can see Who can fill their lack rather than what can.
Hi Lynne thank you for the encouragement.
Hi, Kelly. Where do I start? First, I love your Welcome: its vivacity, generosity and encouragement. Those are important values to me too. (I’m also learning from you: placing it right there along the side is very powerful.) Next, I love the Lack photo you chose. So evocative. Finally, your words. I appreciate so much about this, including this sentence: “A small body in a big world reaching out for something bigger, reaching out for just a little more time, reaching out for the one. THE ONE.” And I particularly thank you for going beyond the five minutes. There’s such value in your extra insight. Indeed, I find that I pray as I write, and when the timer goes off and I want to keep praying, I just do. I send you love and thanks.
Thank you very much Carol. It is funny how FMF works I absolutely never know where I am going to go. Last night was a complete surprise. Thanks about the photo too. My husband takes a lot of pictures for me. I like the teamwork. 🙂 It is great meeting you on this journey! You have absolutely blessed me with your encouragement today and I thank you for that. I think that is a major gift we all can give one another.
“Thank God for our lack. Without it, we wouldn’t recognize our need for Him to fill.” Yes. Yes. Yes. Truth spoken here. Thanks, for this remibder, Kelly.
Thank you for visiting Esther. I am so grateful. It is amazing how God teaches us things as we write.